• half assed posts,  I'm an idiot,  place holder posts,  spilling my guts

    Where did I leave my head?

    fractured

    This is what my brain feels like right now. Fractured. I have so much going on I don’t know which end is up and yet it’s not like I’m conducting brain surgery or rocket science or anything. All I’m doing is traveling between Bethany’s house and my mom’s house and helping out with various events. Not that big of a deal but I feel like I haven’t been home for more than one day a week. Which doesn’t leave a lot of time for cleaning up after my disgusting cats or cooking for my husband who is slaving away making the money that I seem to be spending faster than a forrest fire.

    And November was supposed to be my slow month!

    But whatever. I’m sure everyone who is reading this is probably experiencing the same feelings, if not worse. I just wanted to pop in and say hi and tell you that if I had a minute I would be blogging about it but my minutes are whooshing past me faster than I can record them.

    I think I need to go get my hair cut or something, if only for those precious minutes when the hair-washer massages your head. Wouldn’t that feel good right now?

  • artsy fartsy,  spilling my guts,  travel

    Undercover Photo-stylist

    my aunt's old blanket

    When we were camping at the end of summer I got this crazy idea that I wanted to take pictures of my Aunt’s old granny square afghan down at the dock near the lake. I brought the afghan with us in the first place because it looked like a cabin blanket to me. It’s old, it’s a little worn, it’s sort of campy in coloring… it just fit.

    morning

    When we got to the cabin, my old tattered blanket fit even better than I imagined. Since the cabin is just an old broken-down mobile home that is going to be moved off the property someday and replaced with a real wood-sided cabin, everything in it is broken down too. The couches and chairs are cast-offs from the family just used as a stop-gap to make things comfortable until the real cabin is built. No use hauling nice furniture up there if it’s just going to have to get moved etc.. etc..

    pretending to be a LL Bean catalogue

    Anyway the big blue couch in the living room area was pretty ugly… it sort of reminded me of an old college apartment where guys sit around drinking beer and playing video games…which isn’t far from what it is used for at the cabin. But once I spread my old granny square blanket over the top it sort of felt like home. A little.

    All week long I looked at that afghan and day dreamed up a photo-shoot I could do with it. Maybe I look at too many Anthropologie catalogues but something about the lake and the rustic coloring of the old blanket inspired me.

    best boots ever

    On the last day I told Toby about my day dream and how I was really bummed that all week I had not taken a single photo of my old blanket down at the lake. You know what I love about Toby? He totally got it.

    He didn’t make fun of me wanting to do something for the photos alone. He didn’t make fun of me taking pictures of myself (which frankly is only because I didn’t have a willing model other than myself). He didn’t volunteer to go with me and take photos of me modeling the blanket (bahumbug) but he did watch Bug so I could. And I’m glad I did. I guess it’s silly just to go stage pictures of yourself… but it was fun. It was like playing for me.

    icy dock

    You do what you love, right? There’s always time to do what you love. Maybe someday I’ll get a decent camera (not a point-and-shoot underwater camera that I stash in my purse) and be a photo stylist with real models who don’t have to get their heads chopped off because they have weird profiles and/or double chins.