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Less than Perfect
I’m sorry I was a little skitzophrenic* with the kitten post. I was heading out the door for our weekend in Orange County and I always get nervous about cat posts. So I posted it, then I un-posted it and then I posted it and un-posted it a few more times. Probably not that many people noticed but if you were wondering where it went, that is where it was. It’s been in my wordpress dashboard getting turned on and off. I also wrote it quickly so that gave me even more reason to be nervous. And then I really didn’t have time to edit and well, this has sort of been my life lately. I have lots of probably unnecessary anxiety over possible bad things that could blow up to be really bad things or blow over to be nothing at all.
What’s making you such a wreck you ask? Well, after nearly a year, I finally hired a divorce lawyer. It was probably a mistake. Not because I don’t want to be divorced but because I think I called in the troops when a simple handshake would have been sufficient. Toby has not given me any trouble about our separation. He really has been a saint. Not one that I want to stay married to but a friend who is trying to understand.
He was served the papers while we were there this weekend. I was sitting on the couch. I felt terrible. But I just didn’t know how else to do it. It’s almost been a year and I haven’t gotten the paperwork done on my own. I tried. I downloaded forms and tried filling them out five different times. The forms mocked me. I didn’t know what to fill in where. So I spent several thousand dollars to have someone do it for me. Several thousand dollars that I don’t really have. Some think it was the smartest thing I ever did. Others the stupidest. I’m not really sure. I feel like I’m navigating a tiny ship in a giant storm and I’m sea sick.
Anyway, that is where I am. I’m doing okay. Just a little scared. Working hard. Talking things out…you know how it is.
Also, the kittens are doing fine.
*is that a word?
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Shop Talk: What Will We Do Today?
You probably thought by the title that I was going to talk about what I’m doing today. Nope. I’m not. (I’m just working like I always do. It’s boring.) That’s the title of a website that I worked on last June that launched just a bit ago. I’m so happy with the way it turned out, which is cool because right after I finished this job, I worked on another job that flopped spectacularly. Don’t you hate it when that happens? Ugh. That’s what I get for feeling like I’m hot stuff about this site. Anyway! Maybe I’ll share more about that flop later because flops are the BEST learning experiences, even though they smart like a bloody hangnail.
I love these little illos. So often I get pigeon-holed with the cutesy stuff and I don’t like to think of myself as a cute-monger. I don’t make scrapbooks! I’m sophisticated, damnit! I mean ninja bunnies! (That’s my new curse word care of Bug.) But the cute just sneaks in and I am better at it than I am at other things so I try to embrace it and work with the skills God gave me. Sometimes it works, sometimes it blows up in my face. But this post is not about my flops. It’s about my successes. I’m sorry, can you tell I’m still working through some of my feelings about failure?
Anyway, I’m really happy with this design. I love working with Heather. She is the best web designer ever and worth every penny. And I’m not just saying that because she’s my friend. I truly respect her sense of design and her obsessive need for NO CLUTTER. She always does such a good job. I just recently designed a whole website myself for a client and now I have even more respect for her. It was hard and I’m still not 100% happy with it. When it launches I’ll try to share that here too.
(Jill Hart and OMSH)I also really love this site. Jill Hart is a Grandma who does all these cool things with her grandchildren. People like her make me want to get older. Life does not stop just because you wake up one the morning with arthritis. How cool is it that she does all these things with her grandchildren? It’s like a whole home-schooling curriculum! I’m seriously impressed and so happy to work with her. I hope she keeps needing illos because I love making them for her.
