48 Sucks
I was having such a tough time of it, I didn’t blog about turning 48. It’s a doozy turning this age. I think really, it’s more that it’s not so fun having a birthday in 2020 and probably everyone is going to have to do it. Some of us do it more gracefully than others and I have to hang my head in shame because I didn’t do it so gracefully at all. I was sad.
Thankfully, I am shacked up with the most lovely human ever and he baked me a cake. A pink lemonade cake that I described in detail and he pulled it off perfectly. Of course that was the day I also decided to get off Facebook where I should have been bragging about him. I hate to brag obnoxiously though. But I do want to give him a shout out because baking a cake for a sad girlfriend on a really hot summer day is an act of heroism. Thank you, Mr. Hero.
9 Comments
Jan S
I totally get this. It’s hard to pep-talk oneself out of a funk, especially one revolving around a birthday. Why even bother to try during a pandemic. This year has been tough on us planner types. Big sigh. Big hugs to you.
SAJ
Good point. Planning IS comforting. Thank you. :) I’m getting better step by step.
Jenjen
Delurking. (Is that still a thing?) I’ve been reading since Bug was a baby; I don’t think I’ve ever commented before but just wanted to jump on to say a few things. First, happy birthday! I’m sorry it was sad. I get it, though; mine’s later this month and I’m not excited. Second, I enjoy reading your blog and continue to check on you here from time to time. You’ve always seemed very real and genuine; I appreciate your candor and admire your spirit. Third, I offer you my best wishes for health as you climb out of the pit you’re in. I’ve been there too. I wish you peace! Hugs from a stranger.
SAJ
Thank you! Hugs back from one lurker to another. I never want to comment unless I have something really interesting to say, which I hardly ever do on those blogs that have tons of comments. But I love lurkers. I like spewing off into the nether and not worrying too hard about bad energy.
SAJ
Also, I’m terrible about respond commenting. xoxo
Lynne
Since my birthday, I’ve been in a funk too. All sorts of emotional angst and life regrets. Still going through it. One foot in front of the other. Thinking of you and sending love. xx
Lynne
P.s. We are tough cookies, who have battled a lot of challenges in life, we can do this. xx
SAJ
YES. I love you Lynne. We are definitely tough.
Lynne
I love you too Brenda. So glad the interwebs brought us together. xxx