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    Scrabble Coasters!

    scrabble-coasters



    It turns out I’m pretty terrible at Scrabble. But that doesn’t mean I don’t think these are the bee’s knees. They’d be perfect for game night.

  • Bug,  Family Matters,  Life Lessons,  Moody Blues,  Super Dad

    State of the Disunion*

    helping Daddy

    Naturally, I don’t like to talk about The Divorce much on this blog. It’s not that I don’t like to share. I do. I share too much. It’s just that my divorce is as much of a mystery to me as it is to you and I don’t know what is okay to talk about and what is not. Mostly, I just want to tread lightly so I don’t break anything else. Everything feels so fragile.

    Over the last few months things had gotten out of balance between Toby and me. Nothing serious. We still both put Bug first and that’s the most important thing but I was feeling like the arrangements weren’t so very fair. I didn’t know how to tell him.

    I had to talk to a lot of my friends, I had to write that Sister Forever Friend post and get a lot of kind comments and emails. I had to pray and get up the nerve. It took forever for me to get up the nerve. Finally I just called Toby up and told him what was bothering me.

    And guess what? Toby completely agreed with me. He didn’t fight me at all. I was expecting World War Three and there was no fight. Not even one harsh word. I was so relieved.

    filling the bird feederhelping

    So instead of our usual trek to the beach, Toby came out to visit us in the sticks. It was a huge lifesaver for me because I’ve had work coming out my ears, my car has been in the shop for some body work and I’ve just been tired. Too tired to clean the house. Too tired to get things done.

    It was so nice to just stay home for the weekend for a change. I know this custody thing will always be hard. It’s the life a divorced person has to face but it was so wonderful to not have to give up Friday and Saturday for a change. Not that we’re changing our arrangement. I’ll probably go back to the usual trek. But Toby agreed that to make things fair he would come visit us once in a while instead. Bug still has ballet and gymnastics classes out in Orange County so we’ll probably just limp through the rest of this school year until we move back to the beach BUT it just felt so wonderful that he understood how hard it’s been on me. I guess I just needed that.

    easy does it

    Toby made us a bird feeder while he was out here. We took a family trip to the hardware store and made a day of it. It was lovely.

    seed seed seed

    warm spring weather

    Now I have this really lovely birdhouse feeder tray thing to look at. The birds love it. The cats love it.

    bird party bird watching

    Bug loves it.

    Three more months of this and then things will get easier. Maybe. But everybody is right. It does get better.

    *Thank you Bethany for coining that phrase. I think we are going to have a State of the Disunion meeting every six months now.