It was a very gray day yesterday and I dressed accordingly. When Toby woke up, he actually laughed at my outfit. I guess it was that bad. Of course I didn’t take that very well because I was already matching my mood with the weather like a chameleon. I hate it when I do that.

To chase away my gray day blues, I was reading Kuky Ideas. I just love her. First of all because she has a two-year-old very much like Baby Bug and second of all because she draws all the time! So much so, her hands actually hurt!!! (She sews all the time too but I can’t even begin to get inspired to sew because I just don’t sew like that. I’m lucky I can put together a lumpy cat pillow.)

She’s been drawing an illustration a day. They are fantastic. I feel like I should give drawing every day a try too. I haven’t been drawing that much on this blog because it’s so much easier to find a photo. I miss drawing though. I also don’t have as much time to draw as I used to but I’m not going to let that be my excuse. I mean, if Kuky can do it and she has a toddler just as mischievous as Baby Bug AND she sews, why can’t I?!!!

Besides quick rough drawings are fun. I actually like it when elbows are round and bendy in ways that human arms could never go. I like it when eyeballs aren’t exactly where they should be. I think the most important thing is to convey the emotion of what you are trying to draw and let the rest of the illustration catch up later.

So the above is my drawing of the day. Me in my frumpy mustard-colored sweater-vest thingy on a gray day.

Today was a ton better.

There’s something to be said for routine. Today was laundry day and even though I hate doing laundry, it is comforting to have something go as you plan it. Even if it is just laundry.

Thank you everybody for your cheering-up comments. You definitely helped.

If this were a mom-o-meter fuel gauge, my feet would be on E for empty. I should have composed the shot in such a way that my feet were tilted to the right but I wasn’t thinking of the “E for empty” when I shot this. It was morning and I was chipper and ready for the day.

Sadly, today kicked my butt.

I want to blame it on Baby Bug because she has been particularly challenging today. Let’s see, could it be any of the following?

1. yelling whenever I am talking
2. not eating the healthy food that is put before her
3. throwing the healthy food on the floor
4. the hour-and-a-half battle over what time is “nap time”
5. the endless whining and hanging on the pantry door asking for “trick or treats”
6. the very rough rough-housing that landed me with a thick lip
7. the sudden aversion to having her hair washed

… or all of the above?

I have a feeling it isn’t her. She’s just being a nearly-two-year-old. She reminds me of a kitten. You know how kittens look so cute and you just want to cuddle them up to your face but they are all full of claws and teeth and you end up getting your hand chewed up and covered with scratches? That’s Baby Bug these days. Just too much energy for her little cute body. And definitely too much energy for this tired old hag of a mom.

I think normally I’m pretty good at handling this sort of stuff. I’ve babysat plenty of kids who are way more rambunctious than she is. I think today I’m just sort of running low on fuel in general. I don’t know why or how long I’ll feel like this.

It could be the let down from several days of jam-packed fun. It could be I’m feeling fat and ugly from eating apple pie every day. (Why won’t someone else in this house eat the pie!!!) It could be that I’m sick of taking pictures of my shoes every day. It could be that I’m just bummed that I can’t make my alphabet cards at a price point that I think will make everyone happy. I don’t know. I think I just need to post a downer post. I’ll feel better soon.

I always do.